I Feel Like Exploding

Now the more I think, the more discouraged and angry I am. I feel like crying now. I think because I've kept this problem in my heart for 2 weeks. Now just feel like exploding. God please help me! If really the next issue the committee decide not to let me do it. It's ok. I don't mind. Though it's not really my faut but I understand. I gave them such a disappointment. And I am really disappointed.