What is 'Hug' to you?

What is 'HUG'?

According to http://www.dictionary.com:

Dictionary
hug

1.	to clasp tightly in the arms, esp. with affection; embrace.

2.	to cling firmly or fondly to; cherish: to hug an opinion.

3.	to keep close to, as in sailing, walking, or in moving along or alongside of: to hug the shore; to hug the road.

–verb (used without object)

4.	to cling together; lie close.

–noun

5.	a tight clasp with the arms; embrace.

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—Related forms

hugger, noun

hug·ging·ly, adverb

Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)
Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006.

Thesaurus

	Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus - Cite This Source
Main Entry:	hug
Part of Speech:	noun
Definition:	embrace
Synonyms:	affection, bear hug*, bunny hug*, caress, clasp, clinch, lock, squeeze, tight grip
Source:	Roget's New Millennium™ Thesaurus, First Edition (v 1.3.1) Copyright © 2007 by Lexico Publishing Group, LLC. All rights reserved. * = informal or slang

Many people find it easy to hug others. See someone - just hug. But hugging to me was never easy. I was brought up in a 'Chinese' family and as you know there was no hugging except when I was a child. When I began to attend Agape that's when I adapted the 'hug' culture. I love to be hugged. I bet you are too. Who doesn't like to be hugged? Many thoughts run through my mind before and when I hug somebody. I really want to hug people to show my love and care but for me, it really takes courage. I really don't know how to describe.

I have a weakness that has been running through my mind which I really struggle with. I really care for many people but I have expressing my feelings are can be difficult. I watch, I observe. I noticed many people can show love and care easily. I have no problem at all expressing my love and care to Paul cos I really feel so comfortable with him. I have many close friends but there is something that's lacking. I care for them but I dont know how to express or maybe I've expressed. Have I? dunno...

For 1 instance, I tend to receive picture sms-es or meaningful sms-es. I'm not judging the sincerity of the messages. To those who sent me those, muaks... thank you. Personally though, my sms-es are not just about pushing "send to many". I don't know why but I crack my head when I send sms-es. Everytime I want to send out those sms-es, I scroll carefully through my phonebook and think that sms really meant for who. Sometimes when I create my own encouraging sms, I even pray and ask God for directions - for the right words, for the right recipient. Sounds like I have too much time, yeah. But that's how I care. I am not really a person who can just pick up the phone and call up someone unless I really comfortable with that person. That's why most of the time I sms rather than call.

I have a 'shy-ness' in me that I've been trying to overcome by God's strength. For those who knew me when I was studying in SMP, I was a very shy girl. I never talked a lot. I was not active. Many friends and teachers remember me is because of my name, not bcos of me (Thanks mum for giving me such a unique name). My new journey begins when I moved to KGV. I never regretted changing school. That's when I stepped out of my shell and began a new life. I talked a lot, I was more courageous because of a group of friends who don't make you feel you to fulfill a list of criteria to join the click. Most of them were great in studies but they didn't make you feel that you weren't not smart. That helped me to be more confident.

I have shared many times before, I remembered last time, I was afraid to talk to people... shy. That's not uncommon. The uncommon part is I was afraid to talk to children too. I remembered I went for piano lessons in Aunty Jenny's place. I was so shy to even talk to her kids... not just shy, very shy.

Due to my effort, prayers, 'courage', frustration, activeness in church, I've managed to overcome some of my shyness. I am more able to talk to anyone now. Being a leader, you're 'required' to talk to new comers. That's when I practise on overcoming shyness. This weakness still appears from time to time when I'm surrounded by a new group of people. But I thank God I'm no longer consumed by shyness.

Well, it's good to blog on my weaknesses once in a while to see my improvement in time to come.